I knew I had a high cervix because my fingers were never long enough to actually reach it, but I’d only ever searched for it when I was off my period. A lot of people talk about how their cervixes get lower during their period, so I figured I should check it, but I never got around to it. It’s not that I’m squeamish, I mean, I use a cup! I got through the learning curve, which at one point involved me accidentally flinging the cup’s contents across my bathroom, which was gross, but I kept going. I just… never felt like putting my fingers all the way up there during my period. But today is the second say of my cycle, and I could reach it with just my thumb. At first I didn’t know what I was feeling, and then I froze and realized “wait, there’s something here.” Low enough (dangly enough?) that it must sit in the cup little bit, at least at this point in my cycle. The experience was weird, and actually really disconcerting. I’m used to thinking of my cervix as something remote, above it all, outside the range of any kind of influence I could have on it. Now I know it’s actually right there, within reach, gently nestled into my diva cup size 1. How did I not know this? How is it that at 22, there was this really basic thing about my body that I was completely wrong about? It really does dangle, which is weird as hell. And I’m a little worried about it too, probably irrationally. All those times I just pulled down on the cup stem rather than bothering to get my fingers up high enough to break the seal, was I pulling on my cervix? Is that even something I should worry about? And this morning, when I just kind of shoved it up there, and ended up with a huge leak later, I’m guessing my cervix was outside of the cup. Which isn’t something I thought could happen to me. And I've been assuming the diva cup worked well for me because I have a high cervix, but I guess that's not true at the beginning of my cycle. Basically I’m just still recovering from this revelation.