November 13th, 2014

My cups helped me prove a menstrual issue

I didn't know where else to post this, because I'm actually a little shocked at the discovery.

I had essure placed about 10 years ago, which is permanent sterilization. For the last few years I've been really irritated to have to still deal with my cycle, it serves no purpose. And it's a real pain in the ass. I decided I wanted ablation as well, which is to cauterize the uterine lining to reduce how much it develops each month.

Insurance will only cover ablation if it is medically necessary, which is generally for menorrhagia (heavy flow). So on my last cycle I kept track of what cup I was using and how full it was each time I cleared it.

I feel so vindicated. I always felt like my cycle was a bit heavy, interrupting my social life and causing clothing and bedding issues, even with the largest volume cups I could comfortably wear... but I had no idea I was so far out of the realm of "normal".

Turns out normal is 30mL to 80mL per cycle. I rocked in at 185mL.

No guessing how much was in each sanitary napkin or tampon, I MEASURED damn it.

I've been using cups for years, but never thought to do this before. I'm going to do it again this month to compare.

Found my cervix for the first time

I knew I had a high cervix because my fingers were never long enough to actually reach it, but I’d only ever searched for it when I was off my period. A lot of people talk about how their cervixes get lower during their period, so I figured I should check it, but I never got around to it. It’s not that I’m squeamish, I mean, I use a cup! I got through the learning curve, which at one point involved me accidentally flinging the cup’s contents across my bathroom, which was gross, but I kept going. I just… never felt like putting my fingers all the way up there during my period. But today is the second say of my cycle, and I could reach it with just my thumb. At first I didn’t know what I was feeling, and then I froze and realized “wait, there’s something here.” Low enough (dangly enough?) that it must sit in the cup little bit, at least at this point in my cycle. The experience was weird, and actually really disconcerting. I’m used to thinking of my cervix as something remote, above it all, outside the range of any kind of influence I could have on it. Now I know it’s actually right there, within reach, gently nestled into my diva cup size 1. How did I not know this? How is it that at 22, there was this really basic thing about my body that I was completely wrong about? It really does dangle, which is weird as hell. And I’m a little worried about it too, probably irrationally. All those times I just pulled down on the cup stem rather than bothering to get my fingers up high enough to break the seal, was I pulling on my cervix? Is that even something I should worry about? And this morning, when I just kind of shoved it up there, and ended up with a huge leak later, I’m guessing my cervix was outside of the cup. Which isn’t something I thought could happen to me. And I've been assuming the diva cup worked well for me because I have a high cervix, but I guess that's not true at the beginning of my cycle. Basically I’m just still recovering from this revelation.